i think everything's sorta picked up again.

i've watched the dark knight and hellboy 2 and they're both fantastic movies. the dark knight especially. heath ledger as the joker was amazing. the way he actually got into the mindset of a psychopath, coupled with the gorgeously freaky makeup, tripled with the whole way he moved. that was like movie of the year.

hellboy. that one was pretty good too, i thought, but he looked way too scrawny. arms half the size of that in the first movie. nice storyline though. but the golden army wasn't that impressive as they made it out to be. okay fine, it kinda was, but i was secretly hoping for a bit of damage on a sad city so that hellboy and his friends could come and save the city and have a nice bang for an ending.

i had a nice monday today, had a percussion guy for dep and then tapestry rehearsals. oh, and the chinese teacher didn't come, so we didn't have our four-period chinese lesson(:

okay, now's where i stress about GS.

go playboys.

i need to learn how to manage my time. and watch the thunder tour. and pass promos.

If you tried to take a picture of the whole sky with a camera, could you? If you tried by yourself, you'd just be going in circles, unsure whether you've taken that part of the sky or not. frustration would follow, and you'd end up on the grass, disillusioned and fed up with the seemingly insurmountable task. people might come by and laugh at you, in your futile attempt to do a good job. other people might come by, have a glance, and walk off, either nodding in approval of your fighting spirit or shaking their head in disbelief. but then there are those who come with a drink, get you to sit down and rest, take the camera from your hands and help you snap a few pictures. they then help you back up on your feet and go back to their own insurmountable tasks.

this week has been like that. i've tried and tried to take my own pictures, and more than once i've fallen down, disillusioned and confused and frustrated. more than once i've had people sneer and put me down. more than once i've gotten a few smiles, more than once a few disapproving looks. and more than once i've had people stop by and tell me to take a rest, they themselves sacrificing their own bank of emotional sanity to help me get back on my feet. and i thank God for these people in my life.

it's really made me think, if you do something you love or are passionate about, you'd put in everything you have to make sure you do it to the best of your ability. encountering a setback in the technical sense is part of the job, and challenges are relished and enjoyed. but when someone makes a joke out of your dedication and passion, you fall twice as hard. you end up lying on the grass, disillusioned and frustrated, unsure of your own ability to carry on.

it's funny how something you disliked in the past comes round and now it suddenly has this appeal to it. newer things become overrated and you suddenly don't feel like using it anymore. i've had a sudden love for my sister's yamaha keyboard over my so-called guitar and drum fortes, possibly because i can play the piano and think at the same time. what i'm thinking transfers to my fingers and i realised that i play more emotively and there's a certain flow and storyline to my improvisations on the keyboard and i think i should record it someday.

it's the weekend now, and though things aren't exactly settled, there's a certain comfort in the fact that you can wake up at 11am. so that's what i'm going to do now. catch up on all the lost sleep i've accumulated through this very trying week.

and there are a few who pointed up at the sky and say, "hey john, commit everything to God. he'll give you a wide-angle lens." thanks guys(:

well this has been quite a week. IS and GS A Levels. it's so important that it's in caps.

yes, so monday i had my oral for alevels, and ohmygoodness i am going to fail. i made up nearly half the words in the passage, and rambled through my conversation. ohwell. whatever. so then on tuesday i crewed for the j2's GSs. good stuff man, everyone was really good and all(:

thursday had clarice's piece, which was amazing. people crying and all. :D yes, then had dinner at nydc and tried my first nydc cheesecake, which was goooood(: so went back tired, so tired in fact, that it made my morning today the most stressful one in my life. and it'll probably take half an hour to explain it in full detail, but in other words, i woke up late.

and then after kester's IS, which went really well too, i was crewing the rest of the day AND i lost SIX KG.yes, that's right(: 86-6=80. oh and i'm now 184cm(:

hoho. pied piper tomorrow.

i shouldn't really be here, seeing as it's econs tomorrow. ohwell.

had GP and chinese yesterday, GP in the morning, chinese in the afternoon. GP wasn't too bad, chinese was extremely horrible. i couldn't understand two out of the three passages of comprehension, so i did the first one, which i'm not too proud of, then attempted to read the second one. failed. so moved on to the third one, where i managed to read snippets of it.

therefore, i came to a likely story: this man called mi lan wants to be a writer. so he writes a story of his own, and calls a writer to come and listen to his story. but the writer's blind! or at least i think he is. anyway, mi lan reads the story to him, seeing the blind man can't read, let alone see. so the blind writer listens for a bit, then falls asleep, or at least i think he does. so mi lan continues, and i think he kinda cooks up his own story along the way, so in the end, the blind writer says it sucks, because of some strange reason i couldn't understand. so mi lan goes and sulks, thinking he sucks. then this second writer comes along after a few months or years, either one, and sorta consoles him, saying that cooking up stories is an art. so mi lan becomes a writer and becomes famous.

yes, so with that twisted fable, try answering two 6 mark questions, and 8 mark one, and a 10 mark summary. so i'm basically screwed. or rather, SUED. (either an S, U, E or D grade) bad joke john.

yes, then today i had math and chem. math was in the morning, and chem in the afternoon. math was quite alright, i'm quite happy the way it turned out. BUT CHEM. ohmygoodness. well, let's just say it was chinese, in english and numbers.

like i'm flipping my section 2 first page cause i don't know how to do it, then i go to page 2, but then i don't know how to do monkeybrains, so i flip it again. and before long, hey, i'm back to page one! so i nearly scream. then i calm myself down and begin to stare at the question. so if i look at the paper optimistically, i MIGHT pass. if i don't, i fail, basically, SUED again.

i should get myself a lawyer or something.

it's 4 days to midyears.

it's the memorising of equations and understanding concepts that kills you, like how vinesh says it, the first pull up is always the hardest, getting from zero to one. did chem and math and econs in school yesterday, and i got more in from that one session than i would get from a week studying at home. so that's rather good, i must say.

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

cheesy, yes i know, but i've always loved cheese. like on pizza, pasta and beef.

don't watch the incredible hulk. seriously, it's not that incredible.

anyway, i've been having IS rehearsals for the past three days, and had the tech run today. it's good! (: yes, and boston's leading 3-1 in the nba finals so that's good too(:

i think i need to become less busy.

yes! i'm back from church camp+2 days of doing almost absolutely nothing.

so, church camp details first, before the explanation to the ominous almost. hahaha yes, church camp was, in a word, hectic. leading worship for nearly every session left most of us rather drained and tired and pissy (pissed off). which gave God the opportunity to refresh everyone on the last night, with the extended worship session, followed by prayers of empowerment and healing. coupled with the free times where we played captain's ball and water rugby, and the crazy games with the group(: so yes, it was fun.

after church camp we went to KL and stayed at the ascott, where the room was 2 1/2 times the size of the church camp rooms. like a serviced apartment kinda thing. but we didn't live long enough to enjoy the dvd player and 20 channel tv cause of the three hour sleep the previous night. so after watching kung fu panda, we crashed.

went to berjaya times square the next day and sat that triple loop roller coaster(: the gracii, jeremy and i sustained the PSSS game poses for the part where the photo was taken and bought the very retarded photo. then made our way to malacca and stayed at holiday inn. that night, we had a dinner at a japanese buffet where we, in a few words, over ordered.

had a relatively small breakfast the next day following the killer combination the previous night. then went to gym at the very nice gym at holiday inn, had lunch at the rice ball place, and had cafe cartel for dinner. ohyes, and after that, i lost 1kg(:

back to reality, time to work:/

i watched the first episode of house today. thanks bre! :D
and went to the soup spoon for dinner with clarice. and wow it was suprisingly filling! the clam chowder there's like magic and i'm gonna try the beef goulash the next time i go. if i ever go again.

hello after very long.

yes, okay, let's see, it's been a very hectic month since i last blogged, and there's been theasthai, jungle book and the 24/7 prayer event, to name a few. to name a few more, there's also been ac's got talent, restless and the j2's GS's. ohyes, and then the start of the school holidays, which have been an entirely alien experience compared to days in school.

on days where i aboslutelydonothaveanythingandgrowfatonmultiplemealsadayspendinghoursinfrontofthecomputer, i wake up at about 11. on the first day of the holidays i'm like OOH. SO THIS IS WHAT 11OCLOCK LOOKS LIKE FROM BED. yes, i know, mr deprived/sad. this is also not an ideal way to spend the rest of the holidays because terms are like on the first day of the term. which lasts for a week, then there's the IS and GS for the seniors.

and for example, there's today, where i go out and fry myself in the sun on sentosa. took the luge for the first time in my life, and so hannah, jack and i were going up on the skylift thingy and it kinda went very high and all three of us got quite scared. i got a bit scared. yes, and not to mention that the weight was kinda unbalanced. see, the skylift chair's meant for four people, and so i go in, right to the right end of the chair, and hannah and jack follow. so the chair's askew to the right because there are three people bunched up to the right, and even more so cause i'm right at the end.

anyway, to cut a long story short, which is generally what happened, cause like the skylift was eons long, and the ride down was damn short. i nearly got killed by two children under the age of eight, who zoomed by me travelling at 200km/h while i was starting off after stopping to wait for jack. so that was the highlight.

well, not really. i found a visa cap too, but i ditched it outside coffee bean. so yeah, fine, the near-death experience was the highlight.

but the LIGHT came from the sun, which roasted all three of us to a nice brown colour(: leading to jack's 8-star joke about being a soprano beacause hannah said she was tanner(tenor). yes. ha ha.

IS tomorrow, tuition tomorrow. tomorrow's tuesday. the day after monday.
okay i'm in a rambly mood.