a really rough day, with some smooth patches.

woke up this morning feeling really depressed cause i was thinking about it last night and yeah. full story, limited edition. hahahha. so i didn't open my mouth to say anything to anyone until i got to school and i sat with the guys in stoned silence. honestly it was quite bad, the mood. so anyway went up to announce the results and yew jin cheered me up only slightly and then i went back to my class, and i had trouble concentrating for english and i kept lapsing back into my sorry state. didn't even talk to shafiq. then bre messaged me and she did a great job of cheering me up again:D thanks man:)

then had pe which made me happy even more cause i got 265cm for my SBJ! heehee:) and my shuttle run timing went down to 9.3 secs! yay! AND i did FOUR pull ups!!! :D:D yeah.

and then during training i almost went back into depressed mode again. cause only eight people turned up and mdm tan was scolding the eight of us for not getting the others to come. i mean, whatthehell la. and she even went as far to say that she didn't even like this team from the beginning. i was prepared to just walk off and just go home. but then we decided to reason with her and it went RATHER okay. because of my [almost drained] calm aura and yew jin's nonsense. hahaha. so then we decided to have a match just for the fun of it and it was just so crazy watching everyone pull of retarded shots and moves. but i guess this is how the game should be played. fun. so i'm gonna hang loose tomorrow, have fun, and make it as much fun and flashy for the other guys as well. because that's what basketball is. it's not really a sport, it's more of the entertainment value. hey, you don't see fat men jumping of their couches imitating kobe or old grandpas kicking balls like gerrad [RIGHT BRE!! :D]. no you don't. they just sit there and expect the guys playing to make their cable tv bill worthwhile. by making it fun. so that's what's gonna happen tomorrow. we're gonna have fun. :))

my source of happiness today:) hahahahha

and something i took from bernice's blog:

1) How old do you wish you were?
16. then i can go into NC16 movies LEAGALLY. haha

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
i dunno. i found out about the crash the next day. like on 9/12. heh

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
if it's those snack ones and the turn thing stops halfway, i'll shake the machine. works like a charm.

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
if i'm happy.

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
on my upper back. a simple pattern would be nice.

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
italian. so i could order and curse without anyone knowing. HAHA

7) Do you know your neighbours?
long story. ask me when you see me. the technical answer is yes.

8) What do you consider a vacation?
somewhere i could go, with people i enjoy being with and doing whatever i want, without any plans or anything.

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
nope.

10) Would you move for the person you love?
maybe.

11) Are you touchy feely?
if that means something like jude law in The Holiday, then yes i am. i weep.

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
yeah.

13) Dream job?
NBA, lakers or bulls starting point guard.

14) Favourite tv channels?
WHAT TV CHANNELS?!?!?!

15) Favourite place to go on weekends?
drama and church

16) showers or baths?
showers.

17) Do you paint your nails?
OH YES. THAT'S MY FAVOURITE HOBBY.

18) Do you trust people easily?
depends.

19) What are your phobias?
losing, not being able to do anything because of restrictions.

20) Do you want kids?
yeah.

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
nope.

22) Where would you rather be now?
pariss international buffet.

23) Who makes you warm and fuzzy?
the PUB man who heats up the water so i can have a warm bath.

24) Heavy or light sleeper?
light, very light.

25) Are you paranoid?
nope.

26) Are you impatient?
sometimes.

27) Who can you relate to?
bre.

28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
alright, nothing wrong.

29) Have you been burned by love?
nope.

30) What's your pickup line?
"hey, you're legs must be tired, cause' you've been running in my mind all day."

31) What's your main ringtone on your mobile?
Minor Swing.

32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping

33) What did the last text on your mobile say?
"not too sure. i'm done but i haven't called him yet. my sister won't finish till 6. i'm shaking again. you feeling okay?"

34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine.

35) What colour shirt are you wearing?
yellow.

36) Most recent movie you watched?
Pan's Labyrinth.

37) Name three things you have on at all times.
underwear, clothes, contacts/spectacles

38) Name any three people who can make you laugh.
bernice, bre, yew jin.

39) How much cash do you have right now?
i dunno, about 50 bucks.

40) What's your favourite part of the chicken?
the wing.

41) What's your favourite town/city?
penang.

42) I can't wait till:
olevels is over.

43) What did you have for dinner last night?
chicken rice

44) How tall are you barefoot?
180cm

45) Do you own a gun?
nope.

46) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
milo

47) Where do you think you'll be in 10 years time?
working in some hospital or married.

48) Last thing you ate?
ben&jerry's chubby hubby

49) What songs do you sing in the shower?
the songs i'm gonna lead for the next worship, anything that gets into my head.

50) Last thing that made you laugh?
morris and the-duck-whose-name-i've-forgotten

51) Worst injury you've ever had?
tearing my tendon in my right knee

52) Does someone have a crush on you?
no one wants to admit it, but i bet loads of people do. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

53) What's your favourite candy?
cola flavoured gummies or anything chocolate and fattening.

54) What song do you want played at your funeral?
"did you feel the mountains tremble?"

55) What do you wish you could have?
many things, man. many things.

so there. now you know more about me. heh.

played against pierce sec today.

lost 52-37. i almost cried after the match and it was so bad, everyone didn't talk and just went home. the 18 points i scored didn't even matter. all that mattered was that we didn't have teamwork. and we went there believing that we could beat them, so there was a greater fall. so that's it then. the tournament's over guys. i thank you all for the encouragement, brotherhood, for all the laughs and everything:) there's one more match on thursday against new town. let's go down fighting.

on a MUCH happier note, i went for amath tuition after the match and i was feeling so depressed. but then bernice started cheering me up with her yellow duck and her monkey, morris. hahahahha. so now i'm much better:) thanks fabulous:D

it's the faith game. two matches today;) go for it man:)

excitedscaredunsureconfident-faith-

spent almost the whole day stoning and laughing at various people and their antics. hahahaha. then went to play basketball after school, to get our feel for tomorrow and stuff. i think we're good to go:)

faith would be needed for tomorrow. in more ways than one. and for someone else too:)) don't be scared man:) the big man is behind you! [not THIS one, the OTHER one:D] hahahahahhaa:)

it's so great to have friends who encourage you and who make your life that much more interesting and zesty. and it's even greater to have God to provide these friends for you:)

and congrats on beat-ying beatty bernice. HAHHAHAA [alliteration aside] hahahh:)

went to mount faber to play passive ball games.

i had a really nice second game. i had one strike and a spare at the start, but ended up with 93 at the end. aye, i'll never get the hang of it. hahahahah. yeah. then went back to church and everyone started moving off. chatted with bre, chewyee and claire for a bit, then went to parkway for lunch. since the unagi bento at yoshi wasn't looking fantastic, we went to swensens. heh.

We fall down
We lay our crowns
At the feet of Jesus
The greatness of
Your Mercy and love
At the feet of Jesus

And we cry holy, holy, holy
We cry holy, holy, holy
We cry holy, holy, holy
Is the lamb

good stuff, this.

today was a really nice day:)

i didn't go for training in the morning cause i overslept and i was like aiya, nevermind la. heh. so drama was damn funny today cause we were supposed to do portrayals of different words like life, death, science and stuff. so elliot was doing life. and so he sat in the corner and gave birth. IT WAS DAMN FUNNY LA. hahahahahahahha.

then at seven went to centrepoint to wait for elliot so we could go to bernice's suprise birthday party. apparently he got held up so we ended up going there at 8. hahahah. went to pastamania and met a very pleasantly shocked and suprised bernice and her friends, who knew everything. hahahaha. dinner was damn retarded and elliot was explaining to us the spiritual bond between him and his guitar and his bed and his guitar. hahaha. then the waitress brought the cake out, courtesy of bernice's sister and it turned out to be a barbie doll, with the dress being a cake. it was damn funky. hahahahahahah. yeah. so i had like two SLABS of cake which looked like steaks and that made me rather full. hahhaha. then elliot and i were entertaining ourselves, playing the guitar and jayne(bernice's sister) and her boyfriend looked completely lost and bored. HAHA;)

yeah:) so that was fun:) i dunno what i'd be like without them. hahahahahaha.

1) me shooting. and, no, the shot didn't go in.

2) coach telling us how to beat-y beatty. hahahahahah

yeah. so today was rather interesting. had training after school and played against the sec threes. kiddo came back for training and it's fun playing against him. then we ran a few plays in preparation for tuesday's match. hahaha. quite fun.

then went to balmoral to meet bernice for tuition. had dinner at waffletown and we were like sitting there eating and watching the chinese drama with all those teenage newcomers. the two of us were trying to catch the title during the advertisment but due to our excellent chinese, we managed to identify the first word before it switched to the advertisment. heh. so we just commented on how lousy their acting was but the funny thing was that we were also making comments like OHH THAT'S SO MEAN. then we realised we were supposed to be criticizing the show so we stopped. HAHAHA.

then went for tuition and i sat underneath this low shelf and i was trying not to hit it when i stood up at the end. hahahaha. then after tuition bernice's parents gave me a lift to lavender mrt. and they have this cool direction thingy in the car. hahahah

i'm gonna see bernice again tomorrow man. hahahahahahahha

my effed up mood is slowly beginning to wash away:) usually lasts for about four days. heh.

played today against beatty and bernice was telling me in the morning to BEAT BEAT-TY. that got me quite high for the better part of the morning and the day went by in a flash. then we went to ccab and my ankle was hurting pretty bad. so we watched pierce get thrashed by RI [87-43, i believe], and we were in high spirits. so we went to warm up and most of us were quite hot:)

yeah. so then we started the match 6-0 and we got complacent too early. then they caught up to beat us 12-8 and we slowly got our heads back down on the ground. so we defended quite well and scored at oppurtune moments and we won:) 40-35:D there was a crowd gathered and they were cheering for us:) hehheh. especially after i chionged for a loose ball and snatched it away rather violently with a roar. the crowd matched my roar and then we began fighting for our lives to withhold the lead. anyway. the whole team played extremely well and I AM SO PROUD OF YOU GUYS:D:D:D

so now bernice, it's YOUR turn to beat beatty on monday:)

i'm going to play for the joan hunter healing service later. i think it's gonna be quite an experience:) heh.

15 points, 7 blocks, 3 steals,4 assists:))

i'm in this stupid mood again.

it's the one where everything seems to be going wrong and i'm effing pissed off at basically everything. so yes, today i had training and dean drilled me in post moves which basically means i get under the board, shove the person blocking me away and put my whole weight on the shot to make me invincible when i jump up in case the person comes back to block me again. we both got super pumped up and i was getting more and more rough and stuff and we were just going on and on till i got the hang of it and until dean's mouth bled because of my repeated hammering. but he didn't care. he just wanted to make sure we were perfect for tomorrow, letting everything else on our minds take a backseat. now THAT'S a captain.

and then while jumping for a rebound in some other thing, i landed with my foot slanted on jared's foot. i felt it go down and i basically rolled with the shock to lessen the impact but still came away with a twisteed ankle:( but i don't think it's anything major and stuff. heh. then i was lying there on the floor with my legs propped up on a bench and mdm tan came in and thought i broke my back and neck or something. HAHAHA.

faith hope and love. i need lots of it man. beatty tomorrow.

i know it's what you do, but don't INSIST that i follow along and be so condescending about it. and know that i'm not superman. i can't concentrate when i'm this tired and in this mood. i'm not going to curse and scream. it's just not right.

today's bio prac was... interesting.

we had to find out the use of salivary amylase on starch and guess what? we had to provide saliva. and for once, everyone ran out of saliva. so jarron was like holding a boiling tube FULL of saliva and was like SELLING SALIVA. SELLING SALIVA. damn disgusting la. heh.

yeah. then i fell asleep during english and amaths because the teacher was like rambling on and on and on and on and i got bored. HEH.

so then went to meet bernice after school for tuition and as usual, we were like crapping around and making each other laugh. hahaha. it's her birthday next week.

so many things are making them/itselves known and it's hard keeping up.